Amy discusses her state of mind after her second divorce, " It was almost unbearably difficult to put my needs first and to cause another so much pain. The guilt I experienced was almost overwhelming, and for the only time in my life, I needed medication to manage my depression." Amy keeps remembering the abuses she endured at the hands of her father and grand father. She keeps asking herself if she were living the same life of denial as her mother. She wonders if her life were a fantasy? Will she have the confidence to be honest with herself? Child abuse victims find it extremely difficult to overcome feelings of self-doubt, self-sacrifice, guilt and fear imprinted at an early age.
As I pick through the past trying to make some sense of my life, I ask similar questions: What do I want from life? What do I expect from the people around me? Why am I here? What is my destiny? I don't have the answers, but I'm determined to continue the journey toward a healthier life. I take deep breaths, pause to appreciate small pleasures around me, and awake each day as no ones victim.
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